Solitude was a natural home for me, but the loneliness was really crippling most of the time. I was a people pleaser, and completely unaware of my own feelings and I did not know how to put boundaries in place, so I would prioritise other peoples needs over mine. I was so unconscious of this pattern, that I convinced myself that putting other peoples needs before my own made me happy. I could not see just how much I was abandoning myself. 

Something unfolded in my mid thirties that made my question my entire reality. This was my dark night of the soul. I left a long term relationship that was no longer serving me, walked away from what I perceived to be financial stability at the time, and I created a new life for myself. I went on an inner child healing journey, and for the first time in my life, I could see clearly what I had been through when I was a child and I knew that none of it was my fault. I put in boundaries with family, and I began listening to myself and using my voice and after lots of deep dive inner work, I started to feel secure in relationships and more at peace with my life experiences.

Writing poetry became an important outlet for me to heal my inner children, by giving them a voice to speak. I created an Instagram page called windowpain_poetry and not only did I find a beautiful community of writers, but I also found the courage to finally share my story…

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